Sniffing for words

I am suffering from writers block again.....this is worse than having the flu or a bad cold! I feel so disconnected when I am not writing. Help....is there an inhaler for writers block? If not, there should be.

Change and birthdays

I have been feeling quite nostalgic the past few days, more than likely due to my birthday cycling around again for this year. I miss my family and friends who are gone and for whom my birthday was important to besides myself. Most of all, I miss my mom on my birthday. I always felt that special connection and she was the first person who would call me on my birthday every year, no matter where I was or what she was doing. I think the connection to my mom on my birthday is a connection I will never have with anyone else in my life and one that is the most important in my life. I hope my own daughter feels the same way - I am pretty sure she does. I feel as though the older I get, the happier I get. I am glad I am where I am today. I have decided to make some major changes in my life - mainly to go along with my major changes in the past few months. I am on a roll....may as well roll with it. This is random writing - all over the place. That's okay though. I don't write for others, I write for myself.

Happy

I haven't been in this space in quite awhile...I have been trying to calm my life down, get back into a rythmn and figure out how to do it all in a week. I love love love my job and pinch myself every day to remind myself that it is real. I still get queasy when I read about unemployment in S.C. and how at a moment's notice, your life can change and you can be thrown into a washing machine drum of unemployment, rejection, panic, and helplessness. I see people who are smart, dedicated, ethical, loyal that are now trying to portray themselves to an employer who only knows them as one of 200+ applicants for a job that may not even be the best fit, but it would pay a salary so they can provide for the family. I am just a little panicky right now writing this because I remember how one person can change your life without you ever having control over the event at all.
I am so very happy and excited to be working with a group of people so dedicated to the good of my city and have met some awesome people on this new journey. I feel so confident, and so needed, and so very fortunate. I need to constantly remind myself I am worthy of the assignment, I am capable of the job, I am now doing more than just a job - I am living a whole new life wherein I can make a difference for years to come and bring this wonderful, spectaculoar city front and center to anyone who would contemplate moving here and being a part of us. You just cannot even imagine how wonderful this city is until you see it also behind the scenes and you look back and say, yes, this is why this city is so damn wonderful!

Transition shift

My transition has now shifted..I have gone from standing in the unemployment line, facing eviction, facing moving in with friends, not knowing whether I would ever find a job ever again, to someone who is employed again. And employed doing my dream job and loving every second of it. Now my transition is transitioning from what I have been doing for 30 years to something I always knew I could do, have always wanted to do, and finding my confidence and footing to do it. I have been so lucky to find a great group of people to work with and I am so excited about learning all these new things. I still feel panicky at night, alone, with my thoughts, remembering what my life was like a few weeks ago and I try to not go there. I need to focus on my new direction but when I do, I feel guilty about all the others still struggling to find their direction and not being in total control over their direction decisions. I hope for all of you out there, who are struggling to find employment so you can provide for families and for yourself, that your new direction is shown to you very soon and that you have the support of family and good friends as I did through my unemployment journey. You will need them.

Waiting is a virtue

If it isn't a virtue, it should be. You learn a lot while you wait. How many breaths you take in a minute; how badly you are in need of a manicure; how dirty your eyeglasses can get just by sitting on your face; when the last time it was you polished your shoes with actual shoe polish; how many teeth you have in your mouth; how many stitches are on the flap of your purse; how many boards are in the floor; how many lamps with lightbulbs are in your house; how many cobwebs are hanging from the molding.

GOOD KARMA TODAY

Today is the first day toward all that is good. I seek accomplishment. I want accomplishment. I am accomplished. I seek employment. I want employment. I am employed. I seek acceptance. I want acceptance. I am accepted. I seek balance. I want balance. I am balanced. I seek good things. I want good things. I have good things. I seek financial stability. I want financial stability. I have financial stability. I seek new perspectives. I want new perspectives. I have new perspectives. The power of attraction is in my favor today.

HAPPY INAUGURATION DAY

What a day!!!!!!!!!!!!!